"The Farewell Tour" (2008)

Doomed Nights

As the darkness falls into my casement
I am weeping on my bed alone
Keep recalling all that love should have meant
Keep retrieving all that’s long time gone

That is just because you’re not around here
And I wait suspicion to endure
Tell me that for me there’s nothing to fear
And I’d say “I’m not afraid of you”

Far from kindness are my thoughts of dark past
Close to hope are all the dreams of mine
Hearts are celled so tight and there’s no trespass
Wishes that they feed are pure and fine

Call me down
To the eve
Slumbering town
I believe
Press my hand
Oh, so tight
We’ll descend
From the light

As I hear your voice the world seems better
As I lose you I fear all again
Tell me if the lies of us could fetter
All the beauty in the law of pain

I keep searching world for missing lover
I collect our fiery wasting nights
Am I sinner? It’s my nature, father
Am I losing my doomed endless fight?

Ain’t Got No Fire

You say that sorrows turned my world to black again
I say “Believe, my darkest path was not in vain”
I disappear and I dissolve and I repent
You were my chance but I have killed the heaven sent

Ain’t got no fire in my eyes
Fulfilled with poison of their lies
Ain’t got no passion in my dreams
Tear wounded heart of mine so dim

You say I will not lose if I smile to my fate
I say “There is no pumping strength I could deflate”
We scratch our wounds, we tread our dust, we lose the path
Two things can save me now: your love or my damn wrath

Ain’t got no fire in my eyes
I’ve learnt to bear this sacrifice
Ain’t got no passion in my dreams
Lost in the fragile watery gleams

Only love can stop me
There’s just one step left
Nobody can save me
From myself bereft
Recreate my soul now
Nature of a sheep
Make my black heart go now
From the awful deep

Thank You For…

Tried to believe you but in vain
Once you have saved me from my pain
Then you kept tramping down me in
The place I started path so mean.

Tried to convince you but I lost
You love yourself in love, you’re host
I’m back to darkness where I dwelt
Where no one cared what someone felt

Thank you for teaching me that I must not believe
For I must care the only damn thing - life I live
For showing me how all the beauty dies so fast
And we drown in our cold and devastating lust
But just remember
Your lessons were in vain…

So I keep seeking one to care
Pure one I’m never to beware
I’m old; I’m waste I look like shit
Who gives a damn about that…

I cannot cry it all away
I cannot wash it all away
I cannot fuck it all away
So why the hell still I regret when you’re away?

Thank you for teaching me that I must not believe
For I must care the only damn thing - life I live
For showing me how all the beauty dies so fast
And we drown in our cold and devastating lust
But just remember
Your lessons were in vain…

Don’t Let It Take You In

I know it’s really hard
To believe again and again
I know from very start
Sorrow breathes the unearthly pain
I know you can’t deny
The way you see the world
But this way makes you slowly die
With all this pain untold

Don’t let it take you in
To dirty pubs to kill your soul
Don’t let it take you in
The foreign roads where you will fall
Don’t let it be your truth
As all your life was just deceit
From your polluted youth
The beauty spent under your feet

I know I understand
You keep searching world but in vain
And there’s no reprimand
When uselessly I hold your hand
I know you can survive
Forgive me for I don’t know how.
Because all that we strive
Return us guilt and broken vow

Don’t let it take you in
To nomad’s bed, his dirty hands
Don’t let it take you in
To die alone in desert sands
Don’t let it be your faith
As all your dreams were killed preteen
We often lie to save
The heart that agonies within…

The Distant Voice

Still the ingle languishes inside the hearth
And the slumber takes the earth
Still the neon venom flows into my eyes
Ain’t no tears I wished to cry

Weary hope is glowing in my trembling chest
That is my infinite quest
How I wish I were there by your side so far
Like the painted silver star

Accords wake me from my sorrow
Do I have to live again?
We anticipate tomorrow
But today we’re still in pain

And I wish it comes for granted
All that takes the years to make
For this warm that you have planted
In my woe I cannot fake

Still our words sound shy and distant and obscured
With the incense of regret
Everyone of us still needs the simple cure
Trace of past to be reset

Why it has to be so hard to tell the truth
Do we have to say again?
Magic word can break, can falter and can soothe
And we tangle to refrain

Accords wake me from my sorrow
Do I have to live again?
We anticipate tomorrow
But today we’re still in pain

And I wish it comes for granted
All that takes the years to make
For this warm that you have planted
In my woe I cannot fake

Misunderstanding And Aversion

Here comes the one command for both of us
The suffocation from my hand
And furious I lay down with you so bluish and strangled
So with my tears of agony I bury you in the snowdrift
And walk away pursued by thunder
With my remorse and my decay
I greet the utter darkness
The realm of suicide is mine, is calling
And none would fine me there
Where shall my hearing burst from screams
And sight of mine explode from grimace
Of the eternal pain, of everlasting calling
Forever torn

The Night I Drank From Heaven

This night I drank from Heaven
The creature of my love
And years that we were severed
Enclosed us from above
But lightning in my cold veins
The pain it did rewind
So happy and so helpless
We tasted us entwined
Stars Collide
These cold winds blow all through me
No place to rest my eyes
This lust I swallow doomy
This hope that never dies
And tears that freeze on my face
The fever in my heart
Salvation is not disgrace
And wisdom isn’t art

The Waste

Forgive me now
Please don’t forget me
Somehow I need to still remain in touch

Caress me now
Please don’t remind me
This dying love that takes so much

I’ll roam the desert sands like restless spirit
I’ll seek my end and I will never find
This misery I’ll spill on you, don’t fear it
The last word sounds goodbye but for a while

Embreathe me now
Don’t let me do it
Control the action as it comes

Believe me now
I found love through it
I know the future in the lines

I’ll overcome myself blown in your spotlight
The waste of game will take me home one day
I find it now, I find it hear your dreamland
And sweep these useless, burning tears away

Flirt Blues

I know you’ll find me there in the sickening crowd
The frown of mine the walk the feet that dug in the mud
You feel since now that you can’t look the other way
I let you go behind me, darling, back to my day

And you’ll try to look better when you come at my sight
I understand you love me now like no one in life
You’ll follow me like shadow everywhere I go
And you are really fine – just tell me who doesn’t know

My squeeze, my wrench, my face that always looks like a cloud
You’ll take like your own world and wish to cry it aloud
The roads I walk the way I talk the music I play
The things I wear and broken bed at home where I lay

And ever how could I know that in this world so mean
There surely will be someone who is meant for me?
If all these years were fighting and they lingered descend
You are real to appear and take me by the hand

And then we’ll bang like thunder full of passion and tears
Together asking “will you be mine now and for keeps”?
We wouldn’t notice that so many times passed from then
But we’re still standing on our lines – your hand in my hand

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Against The Absence Of Love

Your voice is rushing in my head
Your eyes do swallow colors
And in this nightmare frozen bed
The evil call I follow

The sirens call, Oh, Lorelei
The seven seas of abyss
Explode above the place I lay
Intoxicating ephyrs

And all my tears dried on my face
The soul that bled my whole love
My guilt, my passion, my disgrace
This final call I follow

But I'll forget you like the morning dream
And sail my heart to sunrise
And I will find him
Yes, I will soon rise
In crystal of those mysteries

Morning Of Your Death

thousand... thousand miles
where the blooded sun arrives
you lay down and stare at those pale walls
of clinic chamber.

eyes of emptiness
but so beautiful not blessed
and the heart that counts its final tolls
to join the amber

And you know, you're afraid to say that we could have it all
Symphonies that quired for us and heaven calls
All that we destroyed and put to flames
And we look the same.

in the hotel room
someone kisses your lost groom
and they share their lust that they call love
consumed by memories

thousand.. thousand lines
on you palm are gone as one
just the void of sky, the darkened sky above
and in you frail tears

And you know, you're afraid to say that we could have it all
Symphonies that quired for us and heaven calls
It's the morning of your death that I extol
And we look the same.
I beleive it's the end of the game.

Winter, Sweep My Frozen Tears Away

Come to hit the flesh
Come to recognize my soul
Heart to tear and dash
On the sharpened frozen mould

Swear you'd break this cage
Where I live my darkest days
With your holy rage
With your unexpected ways

Storm into my mind
Come to let me breathe and go
Poison was refined
Flee to let me fucking go!!!

Suit this cold to bear
Fit the pain I wear
Save me from disease
With your angel's tears
Crashing walls around
As I kneel the ground
Leash the whole damn lie
That is just your life

Why the sunshine always betrays?
Why it's always leading me down?
As it features apocalypse days
As at kills and it suffocates...
Will it just be true?
Someday.
Want it to be true
One day...

Will the sunshine come
From the greatest white I see?
Will you give me some
When I get the soul's relief?
For this awful dark
For I somehow stay alive
Hope for me just spark
This is just... this is just my life!!!